Sep 25, 2008

Its fall now

Like most people, fall is my favorite season of the year. At home, all winter was like fall in the midwest. So it was the longest season of the year.

I got one good pic from this last weekend at Devil's Den some of the leaves have started to change. Other then this one, everything was green.
more to come...

Jul 22, 2008

Missing you~

Im back from Italy. Exhausted and with a full weeks schedule ahead of me.
I was looking at my sister's blog just a few minutes ago. As i sit here there are tears running down my face. The reason: Thom and Erica and Ela moved one week before i left. While is was away it was hard to miss them.
This picture of currently my favorite, yet it makes me sad.


There she is in all her cuteness, walking away. A great image to go along with feeling of sadness, exhaustion and missing family.
by God's grace there will be better moments than this one; when we will all gather together, someday.
Night!

Jun 24, 2008

I love blogs

I love my friends blogs, because i get to catch up on what they are up to, even if i dont get the chance to talk to them.

I also love the creativity that people put into their blogs. It inspires me.


Here are some of the things that i have been inspired by that i hope we can modify and inplement in our home!


This image was taken from craftzine. there it links you to its original post. that i have forgotten because i found it a while back. We used to have some couches on the front portch, they were comfy and we loved them, so did the flea infested cats that roam our area. So we had to get rid of them, now we have regular plastic chairs. Bummer.
So something like this would be amazingly awesome, plus some outdoor pillows (so we can clean them and de-bug them) would make it comfy!
I just like the color contrast betwen the dark brown of the dresser and the bright yellow vases. Love it!
We recycle! and it can sometimes make a mess in our laundry room. This is a creative alternative! This particular iteam is only make in europe (we probably couldnt afford it anyway) so maybe we can make an alternative one! it like how once the bag is full you just take it out and tie it, then add another new empty bag. genious!
this we probably dont have enought room to make, but i found another variation of this that i loved! maybe once i dont have roommates and an extra space to put it in!

here found it! a variation of the idea above.





Jun 19, 2008

Italy!

The missions trip to Italy is gettng closer and closer. This weekend we have our team retreat. I am exited.

This is the fist international trip that i have been able to take. It was a bit difficult for me to commit to it. I have a lot on my plate here in Joplin with family, school, God's Resort and friends. But I also have this feeling that if i dont go and do now... then when else will i get a chance like this.

I am still a bit short on the money side. just $400 more dollars to get to my goal. I try not to stress about it and know that God will provide, but every once in a while i get just a tiny but stressed.

Because of the dates of the Italy trip i will not be able to join the Mt Zion youth group in the CIY summer conference. This will be the first summer in 4 years that i dont go with them. Needless to say i am very much bummed. I will be thinking and praying for them as they travel north, but most importatly take steps in their spiritual journey and hopefully come closer to Christ.

Thom and Erica have set a moving date. They will be leaving Joplin on the 30th of this month. It still hasnt become a reality, the fact that they are leaving. Im sure i will post many a tearful note on here in the future. But it is so important for them to move on and continue on this path that God has put them on.

Summer fun! we are having some fun times down at God's Resort. If you are in town this summer give us a call and come hang out!

Thankyou once again for your prayes and thoughts!

May 22, 2008

so how are you? what you up to?

i dont like questions like these. mostly because it requieres me to talk about myself for an extended time. also because most of the time i dont believe that people really want to hear the asnwer, they just know that its polite to ask the question.

lately i have had nothing to respond to these questions. usually my scapegoat was the fact that i could say school and homework and the asnwer was sufficient. Now that schools out, well what am i up to. Since you didnt ask, i will tell you.

-Im working some 20 hours at KOBC, the Christian Radio station i have worked at for the last 4 years.

-I am going to Mexico for a week with Katie and my sister. We dont know anyone else on the team that we are going with. But people tend to bond quickly on missions trips.

-I will also be going to Italy for 12 days in July (wanna send me money so i acually can go) it will be my first cross cultural-lingual experience.

-Most importantly, i am living at God's Resort. Trying to live out what i believe. To love like Jesus.
My life is simple, i live it quite simply. I dont have an amazing thing that i do everyday, i just live day to day. Sometimes i feel the pressure to asnwer peoples questions with tales of amazing youthfull adventures.
God is great, i can see Him moving all around me. Next time you run into me, instead of asking what im up to, ask what have you seen that God's is up to? i assure you that His day is full of amazing adventures.


Last night some friends and i were talking about childhood cartoons. One that i was not really allowed to watch was Captain Planet (mom had her reasons). Which brought us to the topic of the Planeteers powers. They are wind, fire, earth, water and heart.

most people want to "good" powers. Ones that actualy can do something. But as a friend mentioned, the best one is heart. Why, because its the one changes life. To love someone, that is a power that we have, and we dont need rings or super powers.
Like Celine said "the power of love"
Lets be inundaded with His love, so that in turn we can love others.

May 9, 2008

bursting forth

a guitar in the background keeps me alive.
the melody of song awakens me.

seasons have changed, people have changed,
seasons are new

time passes like water under a bridge
love grows like flowers

time changes everythings
growth is inevitable

shadows pass over me,
for a moment and then its gone.

pain is deep as a well
water coming up slowly in a pail.

pain keeps the gates closed
memories that will never be forgotten.

Apr 25, 2008

When Christ call us home


Today i got the news that a dear friend of mine passed away. Her name was Eunice Toga. As sit here and think of her story, how as a young teen i was able to see her life.
I dont really remember the very first time she came to Church. But i remember her coming to the Church at Campo Militar. She was very passionate, she was working at the time. A great young profecional. She fit in with the youth group so well, her leadership was a great motivator for our group.
Her passion and concept that she had of Christ was real. I remeber this because as a teen when nothing really seems real, she was, her faith was.

As time passed by she decided to attend the Bible college there is Queretaro. Not much later her sister joined us and also attended school there. Those years were her catalist. She became a leader is so many more ways, she was able to influence many of the younger students that attended the college.

Next thing i new she was getting married. To Diego, the quiet calm person. Her personality and his, were so balancing. They became the ministers at Iglesia de las Americas. It grew, she also became leadership at the Bible Insitute. She was an amazing woman.

As i think of my life, and think if the things that i am passionate about. As i look back on her life, her passions. Im exited to say, that maybe a little of her rubbed of on me. Hopefully more than i can see at this time.

My deepest condolances to her family, her husband, and a group of students and co-workers she leaves behind. May you continue in Gods amazing grace to finish the race she started.
for more info go over to her blog. Where her and her family have been telling her amazing story.

Apr 4, 2008

Fun spring photos


My first painting of 2008. Its a little house warming gift for the guys (eric and peter). They just moved into God's Resort. Welcome to the neighborhood guys! (this pic shows it not completely finished, i still added some detail and still have yet to seal it. more pics once im done with it)



the cut outs from the "papel picado" that i worked on for the dance party we had last Wednesday. The upstairs of Watered Gardens looked amazing and everyone had a great time dancing salsa and merengue!

I was at work one day and got to watch this car get stopped and searched by the police. I work on the third floor at the University. At the light out side we could see these two kids (in blue and red) getting stopped by the cops and sheriff. They found open beverages in the car and dumped them out. This was at about 3pm on a Monday. Seriously, its to early to start drinking and driving boys!


visiting Ela and the Starks. Shes getting so big, and when Erica and I do crazy stuff she looks at us like we are mad! Her looks are so amazing. Note her cute teeth that have come in a while back. I'm surprised that shes laying in the pics, now a days she spends most of her time walking.


The Lang's came to visit. Here is Eddie surrounded by most of the Lang sisters. (L to R: Eden, Abi, Emilie, Eddie, Emma and Esther). They all came to Joplin to be here for Vincents Baptism.

There has been a lot going on. I cant believe that its April already. The Lord has truly blessed me with amazing friends, warmer weather, and a great family.

Mar 28, 2008

Bride's maid...

My friend Stacy is getting married in October, she has asked me to be a bridesmaid. Im exited about that, seeing her, and getting to be a part of her wedding.

here is a pic from the dress trying on session over spring break. The color of the dress for the wedding is called Watermelon, its a bright pink, i got to try it on in a nice green. My face says how frustrating it is to try on dresses. I had to get one two sizes to big to fit, and i will have to have certain parts take in. boo!


Maybe the day of the wedding i will look more put together and happy. Like the model in the picture from the David's Bridal website. maybe.
Love!

Mar 26, 2008

Community VS Communal living

we dont claim to have it all figured out...

Mar 18, 2008

Hard time getting to work.


Rain rain go away,,, come back another day!

Its been raining all week. This is our Spring Break week, and there has been nothing "springy" about it. Its rained the last three days.

I was on my way to work today, i was late (dont tell my boss) because i had to take to detours because the streets were flooded because its been raining so much.

The whole street covered.

Mar 11, 2008

Jesus: speaking thru parables



Talking through stories
telling us hard truth about who you are
simplifying your love so we could understand

love was the catalyst
love that lead you from storyteller to Saviour
love that was expressed in a unique flavor, rhythm, sent, shape and size

a love that was expressed from generation to generation
through stories of seeds and sheep, children and coins

a love disguised so that we wouldn't run from its intensity
holiness that was told through stories so as not to overwhelm us
with light like the face of Moses in the most holy place

giving a treasure so valuable that direct directions would endanger the seeker
so a map was given; with many secrets, to protect the one who carries it

a love so obsessive like that of a hidden crush
a crush that crashes into the shore, slamming water on to the thousands of pieces of sand
and then gently laying it down again
every grain placed where it belongs for that short moment before its moved by the next rolling wave

peace that enters the soul as understanding comes to the heart of the sinner
and they are no longer on the outside asking the person next to them about neighbors fields and what happened to the other son.
A passion to be passed on to those who still haven't understood that they are that coin that has been searched for
that they are the sheep for whom the shepherd risks his life to find
that they are the son; who is welcomed back with a celebration that says "I LOVE YOU"
and i have forgotten what is in the past
its today that matters
its today that counts.

Mar 4, 2008

over, under and whelmed.

this pretty much describes the lives of us living at the big house at God's Resort.

Feb 26, 2008

highs and lows

This weekend a group of 50 college students drove to Ft Worth TX to volunteer at a homeless shelter.


I was one of these 50.


The experiences this weekend were great, amazing, stretching. and a lot of us came back on a spiritual high. just like the ones we got from summer camp, CIY, missions trips and retreats.


Which makes me think of the selfish side of service. The person that goes to serve usually ends up with a greater experience than the people that were served.


it reminds me of Bart Campolo in his speech he gave at the National Missionary Convention in which he talks about missions group coming to the neighborhood were he lives, jumping out of 12 passenger church vans in matching t-shirts and then claim to establish a relationship, bring someone to Christ and live this "good Christian's" life for the week. he didn't say not to do this, but what he did call for was a reality check in which we realize what we are able and willing to do away from home on trips, but are not even compelled to think about while we are at home, were we could make a LONG TERM investment and difference.


This is a good reminder for me. its the things i do in between these trips that should demand just as much, if not more energy than what i gave this weekend that matter or can really make a difference. its really looking at the people that live at God's Resort and Joplin with the same enthusiasm and compassion as i did the people at Beautiful Feet and Fort Worth


The thing is, a lot of times its easier to give your all during a short term trip, than it is to give it day after day after day in your "regular" life.


If we did, i do believe that this so called spiritual high would be an everyday thing. what a beautiful thing that would be. i do believe that this is possible.



One of the things that seems to be established almost immediately during trips is community. The reason is that there is no other choice, you are stuck in close quarters with these people, you are cut of from you friends from home, and well, its no so much fun being the only person on a trip that's not having fun because we don't talk to new people.


My question to you all is: how do we establish this here at home, were we can all drive separately, live separately, we don't spend quality time with each other and have easy access to stuff that entertains us, whether it be school, homework, friends, "bad" friends, family, work, sleep, etc.


The answer, intentionality, and true value to the fact that community as Christians with Christians is essential for our walk with Christ through this fallen and deprived world.





Tomorrow is a new day, I'm still exhausted from the weekend, but there is much to be done so rest will have to come later. Blessings!

Feb 19, 2008

new favorite TV show

I get the chance to watch some TV during my time at the radio station. I am a big fan of certain shows. Friends, Gilmore Girls, Scrubs and some others. I am quite picky when it comes to actually declaring that i love the show. my most recent favorite, is Dirty Jobs. its on the Discovery Channel.
Every week i get to watch this guy visit people at work and see how messy and complicated their jobs are.

I love it!

give it a try sometime.

Feb 18, 2008

intelligent conversation.

One of my jobs is at MSSU. To be able to support myself i have 3 part time jobs. The total hours between all of them are 32. ohh wait, i dont work on wed nights any more so its really starting this week only 27. yes! ahh freedom.

any way

So one of my jobs is here at MSSU. and on monday mornings i tutor spanish for students that are taking spanish classes here. For the 300level conversation the class is requiered to have 5 hours a month of conversation tutoring so as to encourage them to actually TALK more. This morning i had a group of two girls come in to practise their "impromptu" conversation with me and make sure they were saying everthing correctly.

I was sitting there, for an hour, bored out of my mind because the best original conversation they could come up with was "lets talk about getting ready for a party". and the conversation went something like this:

-"hello"

-'hey, how are you?"

-"Im good. you look cute, is that what you are wearing to the party".

-"yes it is, is your boyfriend coming to the party? "

-"no, he has to work out in the morning. he works out a lot."

-"ohh, so where is the party".

-"its at such and such a place".

-"oh, what are you taking in your purse"

-"well im only taking my ID".

-"what about you?"

-"well i dont take a purse because ill loose it, so i just take my ID and my cellphone".

-"Blah"

-"blah blah"



now you can begin to understand my pain after just reading a few seconds of the conversation. well just imagine it continuing for an hour.



after they left i had about 15 min with no one around. and then walks in THOM (el guapo esposo de mi hermana)

and i was honestly refreshed by his choice of topic for his conversation:



CAPITAL PUNISHMENT.



now, thats a conversation worth having. it wasnt anything extraordinary once it got started. Thom knows some facts to back up his argument, and i helped him with the words he didnt know.

The thing that i came away with from his choice. is that it is very simple to create excelence and maturity in what you do. you just simply have to take moments in life and choose to talk about something that will make a difference, something that has value, something that will inspire others.

because i believe that Thom is aware of how simple it is to have intelect involved in life, i believe that it is why he chooses to have "practice" conversations about something that actually matters.



my challege, can I in my daily comings and going choose to have more substance to what i think and what i talk about in my real conversations? if Thom can do it "practise" ones, then maybe i can in "real" ones
"learn something kids"

Feb 13, 2008

God as lover

Its february. i hard month for some. a fun month for some. for me its a
constant accountability to not become overly one way or the other. with what
people call "single awareness day" coming soon. i have caught myself several
times in the wrong attitude.
On sunday night at UpperRoom i was handed a sticker. They were passing a bunch of them out, and mine really did speak to me. it had the passage of 1 Cor 6:16 on it.
i will live with them and walk among them, and i will be their God and they will be my people

A reflection of love from God to his people. The intese desire that God expresses in this passage just overwhelmed me. i few days earlier i had been reading in Exodus. and had run across a similar passage and had been overwhelmed as well.

i will take you as my own people, and i will be your God. Then you will
know that i am the Lord your God, who brought you out from under the yoke of
the
Egyptians. Exo 6:7.


I am constantly amazed at God's way of speaking to me. He is so personal, at a time when i feel alone, He reminds me that i am not, and that i am His, and only His. That He is a zealous lover of me. That i belong to Him, and that He is mine. A love that is better than i could ever imagine.

Feb 8, 2008

google images

i dont always remember where i get these from. but they are amazing. and i take absolutely no credit for them. they do inspire me.
this apron. i love how femenine it is. but it is still very simple.
i seem to have an obsecion with bed that have posts on the four corners. i love this design.
Because i took over katie's bed side table to use in the living room. i went to the Salvation Army to find her a nice replacement one. i found a circular thing like in this picture, i must say, the ones in the picture are a lot better than the one Katie and i attempted to remodel. ours just simply got a black spray paint job, then kind of got forgotten. this pic is a nice reminder of what it could be.
grey, gray, great. i love gray. the reason why, is because it is the perfect neutral. all the other colors in the room are enhanced by the gray.
it kind of reminds me sea coral. it kind of freaks me out a little to.

a link to a site to make your own storage baskets.
any ways. hope you have a good weekend.

Jan 25, 2008

Similarities

So was looking thru Erica's pictures on both facebook and her blog. I couldnt resist making a comparison of my own.


both carrying them on their back.
it must be a dad thing.

Jan 23, 2008

Everybody wants to change the world.

I have been doing a lot of reading recently. One of the reasons is because Katie has been able to purchase a bunch of books on poverty and social justice.
My most recent book read from cover to cover is the book "everybody wants to change the world. practical ideas for social justice" by Tony Campolo and Gordon Aeschliman.
The books format is one that i love. very much linear and organized. Each chapter is a different area of life in which they explain the need for social justice, and then offer tangible ideas for individuals and groups to try and do.
The chapter that most got my attention was section 3. it talks about the environment. The reason i this chapter got my attention is because of the way they explain WHY! we need to care for our environment.
I will try and keep it short on my quoting from books.

" All of Creation is the personal handiwork of the same God who was viciously strung up on a piece of wood.
Yet it is curious how many Christians do not seem to care about being good stewards of God's creation... People who love Jesus should no more destroy the environment that rip to shreds the carefully painted canvas of a best friend. it is nothing but pure blasphemy to disrespect the creative work of God.
When we care for the environment, we show our deep respect for the Creator in much the same way we would admire the work of a great artist in a museum.... When we care about God's handiwork, we demonstrate our love for God. and that speaks volumes to the world.
There is nothing suspicious about loving the environment, but there is something awfully suspicious and wrong about trampling it. Doesn't it make sense that those who personally love the Creator would be the ones to take a personal interest in His handiwork?"

in the book they go on to give some ideas of how to live greener and how to create more beauty from God's creation. Environmental issues are always issues that are talked about. But for some reason it hit home with me when love for creation was equaled with love for God. Maybe because i am realizing that my love for God needs to be expressed in more ways than just singing in church on Sunday morning. Because my love for God is so overwhelming in me at this time, that my mediocre acts of worship that i have done in the past are no longer enough to satisfy this feeling inside me.
In the old testament, King David got so "into" worship that he danced in his skinnies in front of the people of Israel. This is how i feel, and while i am not brave enough to dance in my undies in front of others, i was more of my life to reflect the love that i have for my God and my Saviour.
So me taking an active interest in the environment can be considered my dance and worship to the Lord.

Jan 22, 2008

Fortune Cooki

Katie and I got Chinesse take out yesterday. I had left overs today for dinner. I took the last fortune cooki. My fortune is as follows:

You lead a useful life no matter what riches are coming to you

So yeah, thats true. I like it when everyonce in a while they actually say something that makes sense.

Jan 21, 2008

Martin Luther King Jr.

I hadnt realized until halfway thru my morning that today is Martin Luther King Jr day. I have been in america now for 5 of these days. Were there is reverence and honor to this man, who gave up his life for the desegretation of America and the justice for the poor.


As i realized what day it was, it reminded me of a speach of Luther King that i had wanted to hear/read. I came across one quote from him in a book im reading called "Irresistible Revolution" (Zondervan by Shane Clairborne). On page 153. The quote is this one "Dr Martin Luther King put it like this: ' we are called to play the good Samaritan on life's roadside... but one day we must be transformed so that men and women will not be constantly beaten and robben. True compassion is more than flinfinf a coin to a beggar. It comes to see that a system that produces beggars need tobe repaved. We are called to be the Good Samaritan, but after you lift so many people out of the ditch you start to ask, maybe the whole road to Jericho needs tobe repaved' ".


Also later in the book he quotes from this same speech. So i looked the speech up online (ahh the convinicenve of internet). as i was reading thru it. I have come to a new found understanding of what peace and war and revolution really mean.


I feel the need to quote parts of it. actually a lot of it. As you read thru it, replace the countries of Vietnam with Iraq; replace that war, fought in the jungle with this war fought in the desert. Thou they are completely different wars, this speach still stands true.


Martin Luther King Jr.




delivered 4 April 1967 at a meeting of Clergy and Laity Concerned at Riverside Church in New York City




A few years ago there was a shining moment in that struggle. It seemed as if there was a real promise of hope for the poor -- both black and white -- through the poverty program. There were experiments, hopes, new beginnings. Then came the buildup in Iraq Vietnam, and I watched this program broken and eviscerated, as if it were some idle political plaything of a society gone mad on war, and I knew that America would never invest the necessary funds or energies in rehabilitation of its poor so long as adventures like Iraq Vietnam continued to draw men and skills and money like some demonic destructive suction tube. So, I was increasingly compelled to see the war as an enemy of the poor and to attack it as such.




Perhaps the more tragic recognition of reality took place when it became clear to me that the war was doing far more than devastating the hopes of the poor at home. It was sending their sons and their brothers and their husbands to fight and to die in extraordinarily high proportions relative to the rest of the population....I could not be silent in the face of such cruel manipulation of the poor.




I have tried to offer them my deepest compassion while maintaining my conviction that social change comes most meaningfully through nonviolent action. But they ask -- and rightly so -- what about Iraq Vietnam? They ask if our own nation wasn't using massive doses of violence to solve its problems, to bring about the changes it wanted. Their questions hit home, and I knew that I could never again raise my voice against the violence of the oppressed in the ghettos without having first spoken clearly to the greatest purveyor of violence in the world today -- my own government. For the sake of those boys, for the sake of this government, for the sake of the hundreds of thousands trembling under our violence, I cannot be silent.




Now, it should be incandescently clear that no one who has any concern for the integrity and life of America today can ignore the present war. If America's soul becomes totally poisoned, part of the autopsy must read: Iraq/ War/ Poverty/ Materialism Vietnam. It can never be saved so long as it destroys the deepest hopes of men the world over. So it is that those of us who are yet determined that America will be are led down the path of protest and dissent, working for the health of our land.




...I would yet have to live with the meaning of my commitment to the ministry of Jesus Christ. To me the relationship of this ministry to the making of peace is so obvious that I sometimes marvel at those who ask me why I'm speaking against the war. Could it be that they do not know that the good news was meant for all men -- for Communist and capitalist, for their children and ours, for black and for white, for revolutionary and conservative? Have they forgotten that my ministry is in obedience to the One who loved his enemies so fully that he died for them? What then can I say to the Vietcong or to Castro or to Mao Sadamm, or Bin Laden as a faithful minister of this One? Can I threaten them with death or must I not share with them my life?




I must be true to my conviction that I share with all men the calling to be a son of the living God. Beyond the calling of race or nation or creed is this vocation of sonship and brotherhood, and because I believe that the Father is deeply concerned especially for his suffering and helpless and outcast children, I come tonight to speak for them.



This I believe to be the privilege and the burden of all of us who deem ourselves bound by allegiances and loyalties which are broader and deeper than nationalism and which go beyond our nation's self-defined goals and positions. We are called to speak for the weak, for the voiceless, for the victims of our nation and for those it calls "enemy," for no document from human hands can make these humans any less our brothers can we add immigration reform, illegal aliens to this. Because they dont have a document to make them Americans doesnt mean that they are not humans, brothers and sisters.




...and we again fell victim to the deadly Western arrogance that has poisoned the international atmosphere for so long...




The only change came from America, as we increased our troop commitments in support of governments which were singularly corrupt, inept, and without popular support. All the while the people read our leaflets and received the regular promises of peace and democracy and land reform. Now they languish under our bombs and consider us, not their fellow Vietnamese, the real enemy. They move sadly and apathetically as we herd them off the land of their fathers...


...So far we may have killed a million of them, mostly children. They wander into the towns and see thousands of the children, homeless, without clothes, running in packs on the streets like animals...




...What do they think as we test out our latest weapons on them, just as the Germans tested out new medicine and new tortures in the concentration camps of Europe?...




Now there is little left to build on, save bitterness...We must speak for them and raise the questions they cannot raise. These, too, are our brothers.




Perhaps a more difficult but no less necessary task is to speak for those who have been designated as our enemies...What do they think of our condoning the violence which led to their own taking up of arms?...Their questions are frighteningly relevant. Is our nation planning to build on political myth again, and then shore it up upon the power of new violence?




I am as deeply concerned about our own troops there as anything else. For it occurs to me that what we are submitting them to in Iraq Vietnam is not simply the brutalizing process that goes on in any war where armies face each other and seek to destroy. We are adding cynicism to the process of death, for they must know after a short period there that none of the things we claim to be fighting for are really involved. Before long they must know that their government has sent them into a struggle among the Iraqui people Vietnamese, and the more sophisticated surely realize that we are on the side of the wealthy, and the secure, while we create a hell for the poor.




Somehow this madness must cease. We must stop now. I speak as a child of God and brother to the suffering poor of Iraq Vietnam. I speak for those whose land is being laid waste, whose homes are being destroyed, whose culture is being subverted. I speak for the poor of America who are paying the double price of smashed hopes at home, and death and corruption in Iraq Vietnam. I speak as a citizen of the world, for the world as it stands aghast at the path we have taken. I speak as one who loves America, to the leaders of our own nation: The great initiative in this war is ours; the initiative to stop it must be ours.




Then we must make what reparations we can for the damage we have done. We must provide the medical aid that is badly needed, making it available in this country, if necessary. Meanwhile... meanwhile, we in the churches and synagogues have a continuing task while we urge our government to disengage itself from a disgraceful commitment. We must continue to raise our voices and our lives if our nation persists in its perverse ways in Vietnam. We must be prepared to match actions with words by seeking out every creative method of protest possible.


These are the times for real choices and not false ones. We are at the moment when our lives must be placed on the line if our nation is to survive its own folly. Every man of humane convictions must decide on the protest that best suits his convictions, but we must all protest.




The war in Iraq Vietnam is but a symptom of a far deeper malady within the American spirit, ...and if we ignore this sobering reality, we will find ourselves organizing "clergy and laymen concerned" committees for the next generation. They will be concerned about Guatemala and Peru. They will be concerned about Thailand and Cambodia. They will be concerned about Mozambique and South Africa. We will be marching for these and a dozen other names and attending rallies without end, unless there is a significant and profound change in American life and policy.




It is with such activity in mind that the words of the late John F. Kennedy come back to haunt us. Five years ago he said, "Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable." Increasingly, by choice or by accident, this is the role our nation has taken, the role of those who make peaceful revolution impossible by refusing to give up the privileges and the pleasures that come from the immense profits of overseas investments. I am convinced that if we are to get on the right side of the world revolution, we as a nation must undergo a radical revolution of values. We must rapidly begin...we must rapidly begin the shift from a thing-oriented society to a person-oriented society. When machines and computers, profit motives and property rights, are considered more important than people, the giant triplets of racism, extreme materialism, and militarism are incapable of being conquered.




A true revolution of values will soon cause us to question the fairness and justice of many of our past and present policies. On the one hand, we are called to play the Good Samaritan on life's roadside, but that will be only an initial act. One day we must come to see that the whole Jericho Road must be transformed so that men and women will not be constantly beaten and robbed as they make their journey on life's highway. True compassion is more than flinging a coin to a beggar. It comes to see that an edifice which produces beggars needs restructuring.



A true revolution of values will soon look uneasily on the glaring contrast of poverty and wealth. With righteous indignation, it will look across the seas and see individual capitalists of the West investing huge sums of money in Asia, Africa, and South America, only to take the profits out with no concern for the social betterment of the countries, and say, "This is not just." It will look at our alliance with the landed gentry of South America and say, "This is not just." The Western arrogance of feeling that it has everything to teach others and nothing to learn from them is not just.



A true revolution of values will lay hand on the world order and say of war, "This way of settling differences is not just." This business of burning human beings with napalm, of filling our nation's homes with orphans and widows, of injecting poisonous drugs of hate into the veins of peoples normally humane, of sending men home from dark and bloody battlefields physically handicapped and psychologically deranged, cannot be reconciled with wisdom, justice, and love. A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual death.



America, the richest and most powerful nation in the world, can well lead the way in this revolution of values. There is nothing except a tragic death wish to prevent us from reordering our priorities so that the pursuit of peace will take precedence over the pursuit of war. There is nothing to keep us from molding a recalcitrant status quo with bruised hands until we have fashioned it into a brotherhood.




We must not engage in a negative anticommunism, but rather in a positive thrust for democracy, realizing that our greatest defense against communism is to take offensive action in behalf of justice. We must with positive action seek to remove those conditions of poverty, insecurity, and injustice, which are the fertile soil in which the seed of communism grows and develops.*
These are revolutionary times. All over the globe men are revolting against old systems of exploitation and oppression, and out of the wounds of a frail world, new systems of justice and equality are being born. The shirtless and barefoot people of the land are rising up as never before. The people who sat in darkness have seen a great light. We in the West must support these revolutions.



It is a sad fact that because of comfort, complacency, a morbid fear of communism, and our proneness to adjust to injustice, the Western nations that initiated so much of the revolutionary spirit of the modern world have now become the arch antirevolutionaries.




A genuine revolution of values means in the final analysis that our loyalties must become ecumenical rather than sectional. Every nation must now develop an overriding loyalty to mankind as a whole in order to preserve the best in their individual societies.



This call for a worldwide fellowship that lifts neighborly concern beyond one's tribe, race, class, and nation is in reality a call for an all-embracing and unconditional love for all mankind. This oft misunderstood, this oft misinterpreted concept, so readily dismissed by the Nietzsches of the world as a weak and cowardly force, has now become an absolute necessity for the survival of man.


When I speak of love I am not speaking of some sentimental and weak response. I am not speaking of that force which is just emotional bosh. I am speaking of that force which all of the great religions have seen as the supreme unifying principle of life. Love is somehow the key that unlocks the door which leads to ultimate reality. This Hindu-Muslim-Christian-Jewish-Buddhist belief about ultimate reality is beautifully summed up in the first epistle of Saint John: "Let us love one another, for love is God. And every one that loveth is born of God and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God, for God is love." "If we love one another, God dwelleth in us and his love is perfected in us." Let us hope that this spirit will become the order of the day.



We can no longer afford to worship the god of hate or bow before the altar of retaliation. The oceans of history are made turbulent by the ever-rising tides of hate. And history is cluttered with the wreckage of nations and individuals that pursued this self-defeating path of hate. As Arnold Toynbee says: "Love is the ultimate force that makes for the saving choice of life and good against the damning choice of death and evil. Therefore the first hope in our inventory must be the hope that love is going to have the last word" (unquote).



We are now faced with the fact, my friends, that tomorrow is today. We are confronted with the fierce urgency of now. In this unfolding conundrum of life and history, there is such a thing as being too late. Procrastination is still the thief of time. Life often leaves us standing bare, naked, and dejected with a lost opportunity. The tide in the affairs of men does not remain at flood -- it ebbs. We may cry out desperately for time to pause in her passage, but time is adamant to every plea and rushes on. Over the bleached bones and jumbled residues of numerous civilizations are written the pathetic words, "Too late." There is an invisible book of life that faithfully records our vigilance or our neglect. Omar Khayyam is right: "The moving finger writes, and having writ moves on."



We still have a choice today: nonviolent coexistence or violent coannihilation. We must move past indecision to action. We must find new ways to speak for peace in Iraq Vietnam and justice throughout the developing world, a world that borders on our doors. If we do not act, we shall surely be dragged down the long, dark, and shameful corridors of time reserved for those who possess power without compassion, might without morality, and strength without sight.



Now let us begin. Now let us rededicate ourselves to the long and bitter, but beautiful, struggle for a new world. This is the calling of the sons of God, and our brothers wait eagerly for our response. Shall we say the odds are too great? Shall we tell them the struggle is too hard? Will our message be that the forces of American life militate against their arrival as full men, and we send our deepest regrets? Or will there be another message -- of longing, of hope, of solidarity with their yearnings, of commitment to their cause, whatever the cost? The choice is ours, and though we might prefer it otherwise, we must choose in this crucial moment of human history.


And if we will only make the right choice, we will be able to transform this pending cosmic elegy into a creative psalm of peace.



If we will make the right choice, we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our world into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood.



If we will but make the right choice, we will be able to speed up the day, all over America and all over the world, when justice will roll down like waters, and righteousness like a mighty stream.


The red letters are words and thoughts that i have added. As i read thru this speech, as i live my life, and as i see what who Jesus Christ is. I can not help but add my voice to the many that have declared that war and violence are wrong. I have been thinking of the term "pacifist" for a long time now (thanks Thom and Erica). I can say now that i too believe in PEACE> not just any peace, but the peace that comes thru Christ Jesus. The peace that we are to actively thrust to the world around us.

Jan 17, 2008

Savanah


Savanah has her birthday celebration this sunday. So i decided i would try and make her a little some thing. Im exited to post the results.
I didnt measure exaclty right so i couldnt make individual slots per crayon. But i still love the way it looks with three in each slot.







Jan 2, 2008

2007

2007
I cant believe that the year is over. I have been thinking about all that happened during this last year. It has been a year of growth and new experiences. There were many new begginings and one more year of school under my belt. Also some sad and interesting experiences.

January: I started out the year well. Surrounded by community. Also road trip to Colorado to go skying. It was my second time ever skying. i was also an extremely long road trip. The first ice storm of 2007.



February: Not only valentines day. But more importantly the trip to Beautiful Feet in Dallas Tx. Also the month that i moved of my parents and moved in with Beverly at the Royal Orleans.




March: New Orleans. Erica turned 24 while i was gone. But that week in NO was amazing. It was crazy to see the damage that is still there, and also a lot of hard work and knowing that we contributed to the repair.




April: Mom hosted Erica's Baby shower. Ela was soon on her way and we all gathered to prepare. Also Sarah gave birth to her first son, Alex. We went to Springfield to go ice skating for Nicole's Birthday.



May: Graduation! Well, not me, but everyone else. Ela was born the same day as OCC graduation. I remember runnung out of the multi-purpose builting at Ozark because mom called and Erica was having a c-section.






June: Amanda's birthday. Also work and summer living, which includes the pool. With love in the summer air as I traveled to many weddings.





July: Independance day. Hangging out with the college age. Fun firework war. Boys! Also CIY> and most importantly the descicion to move to God's Resort. It was on the drive home from CIY that i decided that i needed to do something; and that something was move to Gods Resort. Amanda also made big descicions, and in August she moved to Decatur IL




August: We moved. Boxed everything up. Cleaned the house down at God's Resort. Started un-packing. Getting Settled into life in the neighborhood. Ohh! and another semester of school. forgot about that.


September: School. Visiting Amanda in Decatur and took a road trip up to Chicago. Also our first birthday celebration at God's Resort. Ashley turned 12.


October: Halloween. On many different fronts. At God's Resort, with International Club at MSSU, and one more trick or treat at the Udells.





November: Thanksgiving. Amanda came home for a good 10 days. I miss her so much. We got some nice family portraits. Also the road trip to Cincinnati for the NMC. Finally little Brenda's 5th Birthday.



December: The ice storm. Labeled the worst storm in the area for over 80 years. But for me it was a time of fellowship as we all gathered at the Udells till we got our power back. Then a quick trip to KC to say farewell to Dena, and last but not least Christmas.